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Av Håkan - Lördag 13 aug 01:17

My worst nightmare has become reality. I standing on my knees bleeding. The wound is so deep. How will I survive this? I can't stop thinking that all of this just have to be a really bad dream... Can you really lose your soulmate? Is that even possible? So many questions so little answer. What did I do wrong? Wasn't my love enough? I just wanted you forever. I feel dead inside. That fire you made floating in my veins is now stone cold. Everything fells so empty. Everyone wanted us to fail. And you let them win. Why???? True all my life I have struggled and never felt safe or pleased. The connection between our eyes was real. How can something so real just vanished in the air in a blink of an eye. The the world just stopped and my strength leaving my body. I just keep bleeding. Your presence always healing me. How am I supposed to do now?? I let you in the lockt chamber of my soul and let you see my darkest secrets. The walls I been building for years I took down for you. My future my life. my love. And for what? So you could stab me in the heart and leave me for death... I don't understand I probably never will. The one person I really believed in and thought I will died next to. Is just a shadow in the darkness that surround my entire presence.

I am not angry or mad. Just deeply hurt and disappointed. I trusted you the entire time. Even when your nearest friends and family didn't I always did. And you just didn't care at all.. We all have a choice and you have made realy clear what it is you wanted. Because other wise you had never hurt me in that way. The only way you knew I could not handle. I cant even cry I can't do anything......

I have lost the faith of the journey and myself

Av Håkan - Måndag 4 juli 17:18

You wake up and realise that for the first time you have everything you ever wanted. Sometimes I just feel that it is a dream and i never want to wake up again. So many years have past by and finally I feel hole again. Life is a big ass struggle with so many obstacles that you wonder how you are supposed to survive. Always something that tries to put you down. You can be strong by your self and you always will. But when you have your other half right there next to you protecting your hole existence you just feel so safe in a way that you don't can explain in words. The strength and love that make my hole body electrified with emotions I didn't knew was possible.

The connection and understanding just by looking at each other is priceless. If I would die tomorrow I will do it with a smile and gratitude that I have the honor of being part of your life and your presence. Whatever it takes and always and forever we will stand by each other no matter what. People will bring the fight to us and we will always go out victorius. No judgemental eyes or words. Just pure love and understanding that has made me open my mind and soul for the first time in a way that I never thought I ever would do. You cut the chains from my prison and let the world in to my life. As long as we are one nothing else matters. I will protect you even if I die trying. To my last breath I will fight by your side. Never been this happy and never felt so safe. I owe you everything. Yours until I die

Av Håkan - Fredag 27 maj 03:09

The only fear I have ever felt is no longer hunting me. I can not decide if I feel relief or regret. Everything that I believed was my burden to bear is no longer hidden in the deep of my mind and past. The understanding and non judgment eyes made me feel confident that I did the right thing. But now we are carrying it together into the future in good or bad. There are no longer a silence in my eyes. Finally my darkness have found what it always been searching for. And this time it's no doubt. You can only live your life the way you want. Even if you have to fight alone you will always be needing that someone that can take your pain away and make sure you don't have to walk alone in the shadows. We are the secret and the key to the truth. And once in a life time you are gonna find someone were your key will match you entire life. And when you do. Do whatever it takes to hold on to that person.

I have so much emotions that sometimes it just feels like a scream in my head. I have always lived like this. And I have always believed that it was a good thing. Today nothing is the same I am learning everyday to shut down and slow my feelings so people don't have that advantage to get into my head and destroy me peace by peace. Because humans love to destroy other people and there life's. It happens everywhere and everyday. Everytime I fall something brakes inside me. What people don't understand is when I get back up again everything that was broken is hole again and ten times stronger. Learning is the key. The key to see what others are capable of. Never show your weeknes they will use it against you. Fight in silence trust me that's your advantage.

Av Håkan - Fredag 29 april 00:45

True the shadow from the moon I will be following you were ever you go. I will always be there even if you say you don't need me. Time is precious this days. So I will cherish every singel second I allowed in your life. Whatever it takes you will see my love for you in all the ways possible. The walls I have been building up my entire life is now breaking down peace by peace. Finally I have found that person that's understand the combination for the way into my soul. Despite the unknown she jumped fearless into my life not knowing what to expect. The fire in your eyes makes my blood veins on fire and my heart rushing so fast I believe it's gonna explode. Nothing comes easy. And all do we walk hand in hand together in the darkness. We are always gonna meet different demons trying to destroy our love for each other. Unfortunately for them we are always a step ahead of them. So I say let them haunt us and they will be surprised what the power of two soulmates can do.

Everyone thinks that life is the future and they struggle so hard to believe that they can change it to there own benefit. They will walk over corps just to make sure they make it true. The mask they are wearing is just to distance them self from the reality. The lies just goes deeper and deeper into there mind so they don't even know what's real or not. No one is perfect and will never be. But maybe it's time to wake the fuck up and see the world with naked eyes for once. Maybe you be surprised that the life you are living have just been a lie. You have just so many seconds, minutes, ours, days, month and years. Try to stop and breathe, you don't know it can be the last breath you take. I have always lived my life this way. And have always just letting the years passed me bye. Not thinking about what the hell I was doing. Now everything has changed. I have lived my life in a lie of illusion. Finally I can see the real me in the mirror. The shadow of my past is gone. And all this because of you. From the first day I meet you I saw the fire in your eyes and from that moment I knew my entire life was gonna change. But I dint know that it was going to be this amazing. You are the best thing I have ever accomplish in my life. And whatever happens you open my soul to the real world.

Av Håkan - Onsdag 20 april 08:05

The distraction is not working anymore. The struggle have been to a endless crawling between the future and the past. Will I ever understand or is this how I'm gonna live my life today.? I can't keep pushing my mind any harder. I am burning up from the inside. It's no reality left. Just wondering between hope and dreams. The gates to my soul is closing and the chamber of my own prison is screaming my name. Maybe it's time to once more let the chains keep me away from everything.
It's no longer a question about the truth or the lies. It's just a decision whatever I will believe my own thoughts or not. Can the dreams be real? So many things to consider but so little time left. I'm not sure I will be able to get up again if I fall.
I have to prepare for disappointment because it's what I'm use to.. Words means nothing if you can't prove them in the real life. I look at you and I just know you are the one. That one that's always helping me even if you don't know it. The connection between our eyes and hearts are the reasons I still standing. Whatever happens you are my true strength and savior.

The sun is not shinining anymore. Everyday is only darkness. I used to be afraid of it. But the darkness have proved to be more like me then I ever could have hoped for. Because in the darkness you always can hide. And the days are counting down fast. The only thing that scares me more then knowing is that I don't know anything anymore... I can only feel it growing inside me. And how much I am fighting it it just keep teraing me down peace by peace. My ideas are running out so I am getting deeper and deeper into the maze. The silence is starting to take over and only the whispers in the shadows entertain me. Whenever I open my mouth nothing is coming out. I'm trying so hard but everytime a single word sleeps out it feels like someone stabs me in the chest. How can anyone open up there mind without knowing the outcome?
The future will forever be untold and the days ahead are uncertain the only thing I know is the minutes I'm breathing right here right now.

Av Håkan - Tisdag 19 april 02:29

I will be looking into the darkness with my eyes wide open. Perhaps it will be looking back into my wounded soul. Despite the bleeding tears I still smile at does who hide in the shadows. You should never hide from your own image. Will anyone destroy who you are. I might just disappear into the mist for time being. But never underestimate the power of a person that has nothing more too lose.
And even if you think I still fights alone you might be surprised who always standing by my side both stronger, faster and more dangerous than I ever will be. People are trying to break our bound and always will. But remember soulmates will always be stronger together then you ever will be or understand.
The future has changed and I with it.....

Endless nights with voices screaming in my head. The haunted never stop searching until they found what they want. My eyes are closed but I am always awake listening for every scratch every sound of your presence. The days feels like months and the months like years. Will I be able to escape my own dreams or I am trapped forever. My own demons are anxious I can feel there every breath like my own heart beat going faster. Something is about to happen the question is how do we change our destiny without changing the future??? will I survive even with you by my side? Or has the time for the burning flames finally beat us. No one has the luxury to understand what we don't know yet. So why is everyone trying so dam hard to fight the impossible? Are we all so afraid that we can't let the world make does decions for us. In the end we are all just peaces that can be sacrifice.

Av Håkan - Onsdag 30 mars 09:32

The fear I feel by be in bed all alone has really got me thinking and realizing the true feelings that burning deep in my heart. Your absence make me lie awake the hole night just starring into my own mind, hopping you will be here the next time I turn my head. The smile you give me when I look at you when you sleep makes my demons hide in there chambers. That lightning storm that explodes true my hole body when you kiss me, is more then words ever can describe. Every hour you not are here feels like a lifetime. I can see you in the darkness and in the light. And not once have I ever regret I meet you. You don't scare me you make me stronger. You follow me not only in day and night but also in my dreams. The true warrior that fears nobody or nothing. The one that you always can rely and trust to be there no matter what.

I have never been afraid to be alone or even thinking about it. I am who I am I always survive. But this is different I missing a peace of me everytime you walk out that door. And when you open it again. I always get my strength back. It's funny how so much can change so fast. When you look into the future it's mostly question marks. Finaly I have found someone that have erase them.
Don't give up ever never. Fight even if you fall so deep that it is gonna need a miracle just to get up again. It's all worth it in the end. Does who don't belive in love, trust me you have never feelt it, or touch it. When you do you will understand why it's always gonna be worth fighting for. Justsaying

Av Håkan - Tisdag 22 mars 13:11

Everyone's life is a challenge. Sometimes you just need to trust your own instincts to survive. Some people are just shadows before our eyes. But still we can see beyond there darkness and feel the connection of there glowing eyes when we continue the journey of the future. I am who I am and even though I'm not prepared or ready for everything that I will be up against. I will always keep throwing my self out to the unknown and do whatever it takes to reach that destiny I don't know yet.

In the darkest hour even the most lonely soul can feel the shiver from the past. It is not who we are anymore but sometimes it still hunts every step of your life. The power is the ability to look forward and understand who you are. The mirror just show you the reflection of your image. Not who the person it is on the inside.
Let everyone judge you or hate you. In the end everything you do, think or want, is your business. So do what the fuck you want whenever you want. You only have one life so make the best of it.

In the night I have no fear. The silence of the world makes my mind get a couple of hours rest. The darkness is a beautiful place if you just open your eyes and see it for what it is. Don't fear what you don't see. Belive what you see and embrace the shadow of your life so that you can see what others don't. You are the future you just have too believe it's true and nothing else matters....


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